Wednesday, December 17, 2008

home bound

returning to utah from back east last weekend felt like coming home and it threw me off a little. home is what i've called many places in the last couple of years but something I haven't felt for any of them. and here it is, where I thought i'd be gone come january, then fall. it was a challenge to accept that moving around a lot will come to an end for a while. because it was easy to tell myself everything will be even better once i move. it made me not try as hard and made me dream up a future instead of tackling what's in front of me. but then i understood that not the moving makes me happy but what i fill my life with, what i chose to see in my photos and who i spend time with. poof went all the fear of being stuck. stagnating. becoming mediocre, sedentary and disillusioned. ok, I still want to keep moving around. but for now utah not just is home but feels home.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Glad to hear you've found some peace about staying in Utah for now. That's got to be at least five "pre's."

Anonymous said...

Glad you're here...in Utah. For now.

Anonymous said...

schön für dich... :P

Tim Hussin said...

beautiful

Merissa said...

I had the same exact feeling yesterday morning while flying home back from "home"